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NEW JOURNAL [05 Nov 2005|06:01pm] [ mood | creative ] NEW JOURNAL! USERNAME: VANDERKOOY love

Brush your shoulders off [05 Nov 2005|05:46pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Bloc Party - Like Eating Glass ] Went to Jay Johnson's funeral today. It was really touching, honestly. Then went to Moe's afterwards with Doug and his fam, along with my mom and sister. Yeah, last night I got like freaking 4 phone calls, one after the other, after I had gone to bed. They were wierd phone calls too. Then at like 4 in the morning the cat woke me up, which I never have in my room. It must have sneaked in during the day. I went to let it out after it started annoying me and waking me up, and then the other cat ran out that I had no idea was inside my room either. Whatev! Jase is coming to pick me up right now. We might hang out with Sarah later. We'll see what goes down. love

[04 Nov 2005|11:46pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Flight of the Concords ] Today I woke up and went to the blood bank to give platlets, just out of the goodness ofmy heart. It takes like 2 hours, so I watched Anchorman. LOUD NOISES! They missed the vein the first time, so now my arm looks like I'm in Requiem for a Dream. It's all Bruised n whatnot. I got a good free lunch out of it though, Cheesburger with sauteed onions. Yeah, then I went to Jase's and almost fell asleep I was so tired. We decided to go see Waitining with Shannon, but they were gay and wouldn't let Shannon in without an ID. So we went to Jamba Juice, I got a banana berry. It was good. So tired, I'm out. love

Love can be your best friend and your worst enemy [31 Oct 2005|12:15pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] Yeah, I still love her. but things are looking worse and worse. I've decided that all i can do is try my best, pray, and if shit doesn't work out, then it wasn't meant to be. I just don't understand how she can just leave me like that, for no reason except she wants to be independent. I treated her the best that I could and it seems she should be the one begging for me. Too bad things didn't work out that way. Been chillen with Steve and Jase and stopped by Liz's once. It's been fun, but still... please be gentle with my heart. 2 lost their|love

[09 Oct 2005|09:38pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | Limp Bizkit - It'll Be OK ] I'm supposed to be doing homework right now. Limp Bizkit is actually the shit man. This song really has to do with what I'm going through. Oh man, I need to go to horror nights, i hope i get a night off sometime, so I can go. whoop. My family is broke right now, I'm basically broke, like 5 bucks. Pay check friday supposedly. "I just read your letter, It says that you'll be gone for awhile. Everything was getting better, I guess I'm just a fool strung-out. What to do? Life is through. Just wanna kill, myself for you. I wonder, just how sympatic you'll be? You've come to take me under, And I've forgotten all about me. What to do? Life is through. Just wanna kill, myself for you. So tell me why? You say goodbye. And tell me why!?? YOUR FUCKING UP MY WHOLE LIFE! Yeah, Fucking up my whole life, So I'm on my way, I leave today, If I get away, It'll be okay. It'll be okay. I'm looking out a window, Into a world that's taking you from me. And I'm feeling so disgusted, How pathetic can I possibly be ? What to do? Life is through. Just wanna kill, myself for you. So tell me why? You say goodbye. And tell me why!?? YOUR FUCKING UP MY WHOLE LIFE! Yeah, Fucking up my whole life. So I'm on my way, I leave today, If I get away, It'll be okay. It'll be okay. If their's a better place you can take me, A better life you can give me. Whatever place I can start all over. Then I would, never need what you gave me. Never need you to save me. And never feel like this life is over. IF THERE'S A BETTER PLACE YOU CAN TAKE ME, A BETTER LIFE YOU CAN GIVE ME! WHATEVER PLACE I CAN START ALL OVER! THEN I WOULD, NEVER NEED WHAT YOU GAVE ME! NEVER NEED YOU TO SAVE ME! AND NEVER FEEL LIKE THIS LIFE IS OVER! FEEL LIKE THIS LIFE IS OVER! So I'm on my way, I leave today, If I get away, It'll be okay. It'll be okay." 1 lost their|love

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